apr3 3
they changed the UI of the database system i use at work. i feel like im swimming with giant weights on. >:(
apr3 2
i've been doing the crossword mini again and i invite you to join my leaderboard
https://www.nytimes.com/puzzles/leaderboards/invite/009285e6-e20d-4f2e-b00e-b699d10dacdc
have adrianne lenker stuck in my head (rare) (the "that's my grandma" song)
apr3
was very worried this table im gonna use for the play would not fit in my brother's car. well guess what. it fit. now i'm free
i've felt really rejuvenated since going to minnesota. truly carrying that energy forward into my st. louis life and hope to do that for as long as i can
made myself work out yesterday cuz i knew i wouldnt have time today and that was the best decision i ever made
ok but let's talk about the nintendo switch 2. it costs 450 dollars. who the fuck has that much money. the games cost 80 dollars now. what is this, the console for millionaires? i'll stick to my dreamcast
my least funny coworker just made a funny joke and got shot down by my other coworker. crying at this tragedy
apr2
well fuck i gotta do 20 pullups every day for a year now
apr1 2
went on wikipedia, was like "it's been too long since we've had an alexander mcqueen featured article", looked on the upcoming featured article page, alexander mcqueen featured article coming april 7. all is right with the world and wikipedia's favorite man
apr1
the hollow knight silksong discourse pisses me off so much. who woulda thought a game made by like three people, the sequel to one of the best games ever made, would take a long time to develop. patience please!!!!
here's my predictions for the nintendo direct tomorrow:
gubble 3 announced
55-minute gameplay reel of gubble 3
i am truly sorry to go full gamer for a minute but the reddit thread for the switch 2 direct is fucking crazy. first post: "they'll announce elden ring for the switch 2" if that happens i will do 20 pullups every day for the next year. then a guy saying the switch 2 will become "the hub for pro gaming" because it might sort of have mouse support. crazy????? then the classic impossible predictions such as hollow knight silksong, earthbound remake (???)......
they're gonna announce a new mario game and some weird switch 2 version of wii sports and, i dunno, pikmin 4 in hd. i promise you!!!!! (i hope i'm wrong)
mar31
called out from work so i can mentally prepare myself to go to work the rest of the week
sounds like no one on flounder wants to work today. this generation i swear……
i actually think crosswords should be banned from america
mar30 2
somehow i ended up feeling insanely good today even though i got like 3 hours of sleep
im nervous about my play but i actually think it will be okay and really fun
mar30
by wearing my big fuckoff crocs… with my standard issue st louis baseball outfit… i make it mine
mar29
the little flittery interns of the luminary can save this city
mar28
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJOL7FcVths
the friday vibe
i think i'm 25% better at the nyt crossword compared to a year ago
beck laying down chilling at the vet??? he’s getting old ;-;
they took him into the back (as mysterious as ashley says…)
mar27 2
tower grove park at night is one of the most beautiful places on earth
feeling good tonight. i really like the earthsea book im listening to on audiobook rn, “the farthest shore”. arren is a good character, a wiser child compared to the main characters of the first two books. he’s good at reading people and being tactful, which is refreshing and cool
and leguin is such a good writer, the world of earthsea is so well-realized….
mar27
they're requiring 2 factor authentication every 24 hours at my job now. time to quit
wearing a new work shirt to work for the first time in a million years. i feel hot
michael hurley's album covers are so good. i would like to live in that world
every day i get worse at solitaire
mar26
i'm really drawn to the idea of having a non smart phone but i also use google map to go everywhere and i'm addicted to online. how do i rectify these two things
mar25
i really gotta stop eating all the free food at work it's going to kill me
i'm becoming a huge fan of this chicago comics guy tom mchenry. seems like he's just started doing a huge batch of comics and they're all quite cute and good... compiling a list of my faves here
also found out from one of his comics that this exists which is insane
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Garfield:_His_9_Lives
mar24 3
anyone have anything they want me to look up in the vast st louis post dispatch archives. any fun phrases
mar24 2
look i am frequently joshing my dog around, telling him “when are you gonna get a job” “still waiting on your half of the rent” etc… but when he has a bad hot spot like he does now and the vet asks “do you want to come in friday or pay ~400 dollars to come in today” … then, he must truly bear the full weight of this cruel economic system, he must trade his pain and time for money. and he becomes a worker, like us all :(
mar24
dream report:
i was in high school and i had to go to the bathroom. it was passing period and everyone was scrambling for the bathrooms, they were all full. i saw some kids taking a shortcut through the elementary school section to a well-hidden bathroom. a teacher shouted my name and tossed me a key to the secret bathroom
through many hallways, i arrived in a clearing where there were a lot of smooth black spheres. each of these could be opened to reveal a toilet inside. then once you got on the pot they would close again, giving you privacy. the problem was they were so small inside that the sensor to re-open the door could be activated while you were sitting on the toilet, so the doors kept opening while you were shitting. the oldest and toughest kids in the school took advantage of this fact and started to bully the younger kids for going with the door open
the perspective of the dream shifted to a third-person aerial view as millions of years passed. first, the older bully children evolved into round, large-jawed creatures who corralled the human children and chased them around in a circle. then, after this happened for more millions of years, all the children eventually evolved into the large-jawed creatures and finally they all got along with each other. they happily followed each other around in a circle until an enormous beast came and ate some of them (such is the circle of life). then i woke up
i also had another dream where i kept finding free twizzlers and oreos on the ground
mar23 2
i am already winning the collage war
the tombs of atuan is like a wizard of earthsea but the girl version. which is especially interesting to me because ursula leguin hardly ever writes about women. it was quite good in the same subtle and direct way that the first book was
i was very sleepy today but managed to do a lot, especially work out which was much needed. i feel like i am going to need to pay extra attention to how i balance my life going forward, and working out is the key, it will truly fix your brain. i am so glad to have found dance dance revolution because 1) it’s 100% my aesthetic and i love it and 2) it is the closest thing to running for a poor runner soul whose knee has been fucked up for 5 years now and no one knows how to fix it. i have been playing religiously for two years at this point and i can’t imagine ever stopping, it has become part of my bones
the key to my life is to remember everything that i am, everyone i’ve known, and try and think of everything ever. but slowly, stretched out, with the assumption that doing those things in totality would take a hundred thousand years. just when i’ve only begun, i will die. but i will have done right by the years i had
mar23
started my newspapers.com free trial. i have seven days to collage. locking myself in my computer room
mar22
been hanging out with this cool girl who’s really cool. we watched twin peaks and talked over it the whole time and it was actually really fun… and she was down to take a long-ass dog walk with me… i wonder if i should tell her about flounder???
walking my dog and listening to the sonic cd soundtrack like i own these streets
mar21
thinking a lot about sonic the hedgehog
being dead coming to st louis june 24 off broadway
anyone else just constantly amazed, blown away, in perpetual awe that there are cobblestones beneath most paved streets and when there's a pothole you can see them, and sometimes when the pavement isn't completely flush with a grate or drain you can see them? they're just there, right under you......
thinking more and more about living the "dumb phone" life. i think i could pull it off
band was badass last night, we can truly pull this off, we can "rock the house"
mar20
coming around on fishmans i think. i really like this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJKh2naFeYY
^^i think the trick to fishmans is you have to play it loud in your car
i keep thinking about when bugleague will move to st louis. the flowers will sing
i'm returning these days to the creation of my new zine, which has a good foundation now poem-wise and art-wise... i think my next step is i want to do another newspaper collage like the one in puker, and i want to use clips from the st louis post dispatch this time... the really cool thing would be to use the microfilm archive at the downtown library but i don't know if i can commit to that kind of digging -- i could also use the newspaper archive online, you get a seven day free trial and you can search the archive which would make finding stuff much easier. so basically i have to decide when my seven day window is where i'm going to commit to trawling through old newspapers and Get To It.
mar19 2
after some meditation and slow blinking and clear thinking i am once again absolutely sure about what i’m doing in my life
what a lovely day… the windows are open and i can hear the fabrication plant employees make thats what she said jokes to each other…
i have ~170 pages of 2666 left. i can do this!!!!!!!! need to make a calendar like punkreflex
mar19
the more i think about mickey 17 the more i think it was kind of a really bad movie
mar18
took two naps yesterday. my body fears the cold weather, i wish it didn't. today it is warm and i have chainsaws of happiness buzzing behind my eyes. also because i'm drinking coffee, which i don't do at work normally.
the one part of my life i feel bad about right now is my finances. i spent too much money on frivolous shit and then my damn car forced me to spend even more money. i gotta get back on track, which is going to take some serious restraint from yours truly. the good news is i have four new tires and i can hit up the street races tonight
mar17 2
i love ai i actually think it's really cool, i love that you can google "i'm looking for a red boat called the strapson from 1973" and it'll be like oh yes, i bet you are referring to the strapson, the red boat from 1973, a classic boat, it was blue, and sailed the waters in 1956
mar17
been listening to a lot of fishmans. they seem like a band that was designed for me to like and i do like them but not as much as other bands that seem designed for me to like. after thinking about it i think it comes down to the fact that their drummer doesn't go hard enough
it is nice when you live in the city and around every corner is a tire place that will give you a new tire
mar16
i have discovered a good photography technique that i think will be useful for the future
this weekend has been very powerful for me, i feel like a gunslinger. however, i don't like that i got a flat tire. i didn't like that part. but i DO like that it forces me to walk to work tomorrow. the bad part is i have to call a car guy and be like yeah my car, my car, yeah, and pay them...
having two sons (my dog and my car) is expensive.
gonna write a great american novel about a friendly jock who comes into a diy music scene and improves everyones lives
i just remembered about this "illegal" lego brick bending youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lIuUxFc8dB4
also bugleague i saw a cybertruck today. gross
mar15
this is so good
https://bsky.app/profile/tommchenry.bsky.social/post/3lkgvxa6vi22u
mar14
had my performance review. i told my boss i'm going to work this job for another year. forcing myself out
mar13
reminder that this is still somehow alive in the bowels of the website at my job
(you have to have that extra foward slash at the end or it doesn't work)
still thinking about the post bugleague showed me where the liberal guy says he's weaning himself off american podcasts
ive decided to wean myself off of american groceries. hit em where it hurts
mar12 2
back in st louis and my license plates are renewed and my house is clean. who is this guy? am i really allowed to step back into his life?
mar12
on the objectively worse train back to st louis
my goal is to take some of minneapolis back to The Kingdom Of The Arch
this trip made me realize i should care about my job even less than i do now
guy who only listens to haircut 100 and blind melon: damn blind melon is like the haircut 100 of rock
mar11
allow me to finish my tale.
if you know me well you know i have a history with malls. well, the mall of america is no different, i ate dirt out of a potted plant there as a child. this time the trip was relatively short — but we had enough time to decide to all buy crocs at the croc store.
the highlight was of course the enigmatic rainforest cafe, which uncle-altoid and i were unable to visit last time because apparently you need a reservation. she made the reservation this time and we all went, entering the twilight space between reality and animatronic. the food was pretty bad but the atmosphere, constant fake thunderstorms, free souvenir photo, and weird bird cup made up for it. look yall i hate capitalism but sometimes they do something funny and you can go see it
after the cafe, we returned home and chilled — E and i watched the last half of a spanish-language film i forgot the name of. i recommended she watch black orpheus. it’s cool because she can read bolano in the original language
uncle-altoid made mint tea which i need to start drinking more. she has an extremely powerful set of drinks and meals she deals in, the most powerful i know. we then watched her latest obsession, deadliest catch, which is about captains who sit in a cabin and order crab fisherman to work through the night.
the next day (yesterday), we walked to a diner called modern times, kind of a minnesota mokabes. had the breakfast burrito. walked to a bookstore, bugleague picked up rendezvous with rama on my recommendation (😤), then we did a ~7 mile bike ride around some lakes — we got to ride on a tandem bike E found on the side of the road for free. my second tandem bike experience after riding L’s.
let’s see, what else. after that we went to a restaurant where you grill your own food on a grill. not ideal for the traveling vegan, but i got to grill some veggies. then we saw mickey 17, which i thought was just okay but a fun watch.
that was basically it! now bugleague and i are on the train back to chicago, from which i will travel further on to st louis. i am exhausted but very happy
mar9
the events:
ate veggies and tofu on pita, played pool at the bar. found a chair on the side of the road, went to uncle-altoid’s friend A’s house and played just dance 1 2 and 3 which she had recently acquired from facebook marketplace. took the chair to a late night gyro place which almost didn’t let us in because of the powers of daylight savings time making it past close. E successfully convinced them to let us in while holding a chair.
ate fries and went to bed quite late. woke up this morning (afternoon), uncle-altoid made us sourdough pancakes (extremely good), then we went cold dipping which bugleague and i were terrified to do. BUT it actually wasn’t terrible and we walked into a freezing cold lake with dignity and aplomb. it does kind of relax you, makes your brain reconfigure into a simpler form, the form of just being in the cold.
now we are driving to the mall of america, to eat dinner at the rainforest cafe
CURRENT TIME: 4:08PM
mar8 2
alright ive decided im going to become rich and have a summer home in minneapolis
so i dont forget what we did:
we went to an anarchist employee owned coffee shop. it was cool, i hope it’s real and working for them. then we went to the high point print shop and did lego prints using legos and paint/ink. really cool to see all the kids into it. went to a vintage store, tried on a pair of pants but they were too skinny legged
back to kristen’s apartment, worked on a crossword while bugleague napped and uncle-altoid played the guitar. we all did yoga along with altoid’s roommate E who is really cool. we talked about real dom cuz she has 2 real dom tattoos. now E and uncle-altoid are making dinner.
CURRENT TIME: 7:01pm
mar8
the start of a day in the northern city of minneapolis. the train ride up yesterday was productive for me. bugleague and i drew a lot. then we met uncle-altoid and went to a bar and drank hamms, which is what you drink up here instead of stag. truly the flounder reunion of the century
mar7
train part 2. northward through glacierlands
mar6
pupdog01’s performance at the poetry show last night made me fall in love with st louis again
now i am on the train, looking out at a post-glacier world
mar5
pre-vacay senioritis at my job today
looking at you calmly while playing a horrible screeching noise off of my phone: "this song has been getting a lot of airplay on classic rock radio stations lately"
mar4 2
mar4
i did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got my car plates renewed. it only cost me like 1000 dollars between the tickets, brake pad replacement, property tax, inspection, and renewal fees. and i only had to go to about 15 different locations to make it happen. but now i have updated plates and i fixed my headlight and maybe i'll never get pulled over again.
the visit to the maplewood dmv today was rather quaint. i went in and there was a million people there so i signed on to the waiting list and walked to joanns, found out all joanns are closing??? and everything was 30 percent off?? i bought 2 sketchbooks and i still s**le pens because im not paying 20 bucks for 5 pens, then i drove to living room cafe for coffee, though i wanted to tell them they should schedule bigassbug for more shifts, i sat next to this woman and drew what i saw out the window, she said "wow you are very talented", i awkwardly thanked her, then i went back to the dmv and waited another 45 minutes or so, i had all the documentation and i got it done.
anyway, i've been listening to a lot of magnet lately... which i found through their last album from 2002, caffeine superstar, and i really really liked... tried listening to their second to last album, shark bait, and it was kind of a cloying breakup album and i didn't like it... but then i went back to their album don't be a penguin and i like it. the breakup album can be a soaring high or a bitter low...
mar3 2
can i just say it’s so cool to have a friend who can make you a vegan cake for your birthday and it’s incredibly delicious and you get to eat the leftovers of it over the course of the next 3-5 days
mar3
sleepy from this weekend. sitting and doing my real job at work
i will never write the great american novel of course, but if i did it would be called Rachel, the story of a sporty, incurious, asexual girl whose best friend becomes america’s favorite artist
also why arent we calling novels novs. just read a great nov the other day
mar2
should i watch the oscars even tho ive seen like 2 movies
mar1 2
just found out the guy that does "the minute hour" youtube channel/radio plays removed all his videos. which is a bad day for art! he was a little more edgy than i was ever really prepared to embrace, but i was also super inspired by the stuff he made.
luckily it's all been archived by other people on youtube (with his permission)... which is good because it wasn't a huge channel and there was a chance it could have all just disappeared!
this is my favorite minute hour
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pApQdw6K5Vw
and of course, the classic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENPnGck2NK4
i forgot about this one it makes me laugh every time it’s so stupid
mar1
birthday 2
i am now 29 years old. thank you for one millionen views
feb28
birthday 1
i did something really dumb about a week ago (not out of this world dumb, but definitely dumb for old idi blasks) and there have been consequences to this action that are taxing me, trying me. however, i press on
who wants to see being dead with me in lawrence ks may 10
silently cheering in my office that my runny nose is going away
sitting on my couch watching my dog’s face twitch while he sleeps. it will never not be cute
feb27 2
feb27
still getting over a cold, prob will not make it to the show tonight :((((( at least i'm at work, the thing that matters!!!
one week until the great midwest flounderer journey........ im very excited
what if i changed my name to bowl
thinking about bugleague's tweet about how their name would be dirt or fridge or whatever but unfortunately they have a job
bugleague praise week
yall i think i figured out all my problems. i forgot to believe in kindness again. i keep forgetting about that. time to believe
feb26
i always get depressed around my birthday, but it always feels completely unrelated to my birthday. just the way it works out. i have no opinions about turning 29. i think i'll still feel 25 until i turn 30. then i'll feel 30 until i turn 40. then i'll feel 40 until i turn 80. then i'll die OR live forever depending on what they discover around then
album for my chill shoegazey heads out there
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4oWF98mbeY
feb25 3
god gives his weirdest battles to his most dorkass soldiers
feb25 2
they are fixing my car for 500 dollars. they also said there's lots of other things i should do to fix my car that cost 3000 dollars. the thing is, i'm not spending 3000 dollars on my car. maybe my car needs those things, but im not spending 3000 dollars on my car. maybe my car likes itself the way it is. maybe we should stop trying to change cars when they're fine? my car is fine? i don't know.
feb25
every time i try "the apps" i feel good because people clearly would be down to date me, but it also makes me realize i don't want to date any of them and would rather worship the earth through art until a tree spirit gets a crush on me... it's nice to have as an option though
been listening to satellite lovers nonstop
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOztqyHIZWU
feb24 2
do yall think its cool to put on your hinge profile that you “believe the forces of good will vanquish the forces of evil” ?
feb24
i started listening to this song ironically cuz it was on a tape my grandma gave me and then i started listening to it unironically and now i can't stop listening to it.....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fC40F26MKT8
i have decided to start signing off all my work emails with "the battle for my soul begins now"
feb23 2
considering trekking alone to “the theatre” this evening to watch stephen king “the monkey”. i gotta see what that monkey’s up to
saw a lot of flounderers this weekend who seemed in good spirits. got to see punkreflex’s copy of infinite jest in real life which was like bearing witness to a holy object like the bones of a saint
feb23
who wants to go see the stephen king monkey movie with me
feb22
we are leaving the cold i cant imagine how i will feel when it’s warm im so excited
feb21 3
follow me on blue sky if you want i want more mutuals on the non elon musk one
https://bsky.app/profile/rowenconry.bsky.social
feb21 2
MY PROBLEM: i tried to record the zine release open mic last night with a sony handycam ive had since 1999 i used to fuck around with all the time as a kid (was a nerd from birth). however most of the footage has the incessant whining of the 26 year old tape gears screaming over the poetry reads. the mic is right next to the tape so it’s super loud
MY SOLUTION:
i bought a cheap external mic off ebay and im gonna plug it in to the camera
feb21
sometimes working on the zine is mentally taxing but when it works it works yall. even the reclusive idi blasks loves the stl diy community very much
feb20
listening to my coworkers talk about how you should never get tattoos... or piercings other than your ears!!! great to be back in the office
sometimes the worst part of my coworker talking about her husband all day is that he seems like a really standup guy and i get why she's obsessed with him
feb18 2
my review of a wizard of earthsea..... ursula le guin freakin does it again folks, it's basically a mood piece on the way we deal with pride, how pride is maybe the emotion that requires the most balance... it's also about illusions, the line is constantly being drawn in the book between illusions, which are easy to make, and real change, which is very very hard, impossible some of the time. and of course it is about words, their power and mysteriousness. it is about pride, illusions, and the real true mystery of words. im gonna read the next book she wrote about earthsea too!!
as much as i love reading stifled mathbook science fiction, it was also a nice break into beautifully written literature again haha
feb18
been playing guitar hero lately and what ive learned is i dont have time to get good at guitar hero. i have a job and a life
feb17 2
went to the library downtown today. cool ass library and nice people that work there
feb17
it is time for me to give myself to the people of this city.
hope theyre ready……
feb15
i feel like generally i am living a full and good life rn
feb14
i bought something from japan a while ago (i forget what it was) and they threw in a little notepad for free and i've been using it at work and it rocks
happy valentines day to all you lovers out there
feb13
the dentist said i have no cavities yay
feb12
well, they finally did it. they pulled me over in st louis CITY for my expired plates. i thought i knew this beautiful city and its compassion. reader i was wrong. they fucked me over.
in a fit of executive function, i went downtown amid the flurries of snow to the city assessor/collector's office and paid the three years of personal property tax i owed. now i only have to do 50 more things and my plates will be renewed. take me off the grid... (but let me keep my dreamcast)
feb10 2
does anyone have any science fiction book recommendations for yours truly? unlike most things, where if you have foot pain you can google "foot pain reddit", you can't google "good science fiction reddit" because reddit's taste in science fiction is fucking awful.....
feb10
february 23rd. 50 degree high. that is what i hold on to in this trying time
feb9
went to 2 good parties tonight like a freaking boss. i feel good
finished dragon’s egg, wonderful book that i would rank with the greatest sci fi books ive ever read (which are rendezvous with rama, roadside picnic, the dispossessed, and probably the three body problem trilogy). great “classic sci fi” story about kindness, physics, professionalism, grit, and blobs having sex with each other in a shockingly horny way. glad to have read
feb7
dragons egg is an awesome book i recommend it i havent finished it yet but it’s really cool
feb6
weird that we still use the word music when we invented the better word, "tunes"
feb5
learned from my friends recently that the ice age glaciers stopped at the missouri river. this is fascinating to me. st louis shoulda been called glacier's end. cooler name. glaciers are cool and i want to learn more. glacier's end is also a good name for a zine
river des peres is also interesting. we just shoved it underground.....
maybe i'll become a river guy
when flounder is the only human remnant left to study they're going to think new york and st louis were the two great cities of humankind
feb4 2
determined to make it to mid march without going on “hinge”
feb4
i need to remember that caring about my job is a bad idea and will just give me a heart attack
feb3
had a crazy dream last night that i wish i remembered more of. the part i remember is i was one of two brothers and our hobby was to sneak into mafia meetings pretending to be out-of-town members of the mafia, then spin an elaborate story for the mafiosos making it as outlandish as possible while staying accurate so we wouldn't get caught. half the dream was the story we were telling but i can't remember anything about it :'(
i love the weekend but not so fond of the weekdays because i have to work. anyone else relate to this?
i would say i drank the perfect amount of coffee this weekend. i intend to repeat the process next weekend as well.
feb2
groundhog central
band practice is so cool. i hope one day in the not so distant future we can play our songs for you all
jan31 2
my little brother: "you should get roblox. it's on the xbox. and i'll tell you the price. it's free."
riding an insane mental high right now for several reasons. it's cool but also i would like to sleep now
jan31
what's up everyone, floundering again from my job. i love working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
new years resolution: say "nyeh heh heh" more
jan30
alexander mcqueen on wikipedia home page. mark it down.
jan29 3
there was a massive shift in sci-fi writing around, i dunno, 2005? everyone started making "jokes". they all started writing like joss whedon. the infection runs very deep. be very wary of any sci fi novel written at or after this time.
dragon's egg is not this kind of book, it was written in 1980 and reads like a technical manual pretending to be a novel which is beautiful
jan29 2
for the first time in many years, i am changing computers. i feel sad to leave behind my trusty laptop, which i acquired in 2017. however it is beginning to finally die.
i am switching to an office surplus cheap as hell machine, but i think it will do everything i want it to, mostly running microsoft publisher and paint dot net. i'm a little sad i won't be able to lug it to the coffee shop, but i never do that anyway with my laptop because the hinge has been busted for years. (also, i might be underestimating my ability/comic desire to lug a desktop computer to the coffee shop)
jan29
sometimes i forget that being a morning person every once and a while is entertaining and fun
excited about a rather busy 2nd half of feb and first half of march im going to have
they should make goodreads as “cool with the kids” as letterboxd is. it would probably motivate me to read more but as it stands im scared to go on there. everyones review is longer than infinity
jan28
i think this weekend im gonna drink a crap ton of coffee for fun
jan27 2
got a cute lil strap n bag for my camera. im twee now (i was already twee)
finished a fire upon the deep, these are my thoughts. i thought it had some great ideas, most of them very well described, especially the pack intelligence aliens which are the main focus of the book. lots of cool applications of that one “thought”. the characters were likable, especially pilgrim, ravna, and amdi. definitely a book for dog lovers and i liked how cuddly everyone was with their dog alien friends. and that wasn’t even the only cool sci-fi concept. however, the actual plot was kind of a drag, slow and the narration got ludicrously repetitive in places. half the book was a lumbering setup of the final confrontation which ended extremely quickly. i think the book needed some more twists and turns or 200 pages removed.
i’m glad i read it but i don’t think i’ll read the prequel or sequel. also, the book has a really good audiobook narrator. he had a fun voice and was probably 30% percent of my enjoyment of the book. thank you peter larkin
jan27
still feeling extremely powerful
almost groundhog time......
jan25
i am beginning to feel extremely powerful
jan24
i like the little preview of the new OFF soundtrack, though you can never beat pepper steak. that is one thing i (a "gamer") like about video games and their existence as an amalgamation of every other art form is that sometimes you replace the soundtrack and everyone argues over which one is better until the end of time, see: sonic CD
jan23
after much research i have determined that this is the ultimate lo fi beat to study and or relax to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_3Ni4SjupU
jan22 3
thinking of challenging myself by making this whole zine sans serif. a dangerous decision
^^update no it's too scary
flipping through a random issue of the new york times from 2002 and wow they really wanted to grind iraq to dust back then huh (they still do it's just on the back-burner now)
oh and two pages later there's an insane pro-israel article. you don't have to look hard for this stuff apparently
jan22 2
this shit is crazy
https://youtu.be/uUuM8NdmaAU?si=CoMvwB_acNf1acEU
jan22
youtube has been recommending me video essays from channels with like 5k subscribers and it's awesome. i feel like i'm hearing the voice of the people
i think i got myself out of the worst of it. proud of my self
jan21 2
doing some online research about seasonal affective disorder and what i have learned is i am going through menopause
jan21
just encountered one of the few fancy binder clips in circulation at work. it was like being taken out onto the ballroom floor...
jan20
i refuse to give in to the big sad. im not gonna wait around to not be depressed. im gonna do it myself. im gonna climb out of it like climbing a ladder… some kind of… rowen’s ladder…….
jan19 2
really weird day i think because of the cold. even my dog was feeling sleepy.
im trying to think of interesting indoor spaces to take pictures of with my camera
i need the snuggie yall
spent the whole day playing factorio and it made me remember that factorio is actually pretty boring. but it was fun to play for one day
sometimes i think maybe i have written most of what i have to say. it’s not true, but in some ways it’s true. my dad is always talking about writing a self help book “so people dont make the same mistakes he does” which is funny, but also i understand the urge. once you have cutely, cleverly, and bookishly danced around every salient point of life story, what else can you do but say okay here it is exactly.
jan19
bored as hell 2day
jan18
tiktok banned shortly after i get the most likes i ever got on my tik tok (75 likes). coincidence no.
jan17 3
hi workout flounder, i just went home and worked out and now i feel like a god-king. although the ddr was not kind to me today, i tried some of the really hard shit and got my ass handed to me
jan17 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kf0ZvY2usbY
good time for my favorite twin peaks scene
jan17
frick i shouldve worked out last night im sitting here at work with too much energy
winter's trick: cold so you lose all desire to do anything, get warm for a minute and then you go crazy and want to sprint out of the office. i'm gonna be one of those old people who move to arizona and live in those little tiny homes in the desert, i can't do this and it's not even bad
jan16
could noooot get out of bed this morning. too cold, too snowy, i'm at my limit. managed to get to work at noon. now i'm here in my office with my tea, i feel good. but jesus christ
david lynch dead????? we lost a real one today, damn
i think the "nintendo switch 2" as they call it will be worth buying in ~4 years, maybe there will be something good to play on it then
proud to have normalized writing in all lowercase in the microsoft teams chat of the "young professionals" at my workplace
GAMER RANT: mixed feelings about the nintendo switch 2. part of why i was a nintendo freak in high school was because they would come out with like the "nintendo pole" and the console was a pole you had to hit with a giant bat really hard to play the game. now theyre just doing the nintendo switch again but i dunno the graphics are better? release the pole cowards
jan15
salivating at the 49 degree high prediction on friday i think this snow should melt now please
i have been consistently staying up until 2am and then taking a ~3 hour nap in the evening. this is probably one of the "bad sleep schedules" people talk about (in hushed tones) but i dunno man sometimes you gotta switch it up ("switch it up" = winter depression)
recovering from yesterday's plastic surgery (eye job)
they raised my rent by 50 bux a month X-X
did a substantial amount of actual work at my job today
jan14
the rumors are true, they cut my eyelid open. they went in there and took out my stye. it hurt a little when they needled in the numbing stuff. after that it felt like someone was trying to put my eyelid on as a glove. the doctor was very buff and told me i might pass out. after the surgery, i went back into the streets and remembered where i live, who i am, and what i like to do.
jan13
work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work... work.
runescape is a rhythm game whose beats are measured in months. it is a rhythm game in the sense of circadian rhythm. it invites you to examine the rhythm of your own life.
jan12
i was talking to moldgold and ztbd yesterday about how half the time i’m really good at talking to people at parties and half the time i feel like i forgot how talking even works. last night i forgot how talking works again but i still had a good time and am having a good sunday
i am henceforth instituting my “open windows, closed door” dating policy in which i flirt with people i think are cute but i will not ask anyone out for a while because i think i need to work on myself. i should probably make another zine
jan10
somehow made it to my eye appointment and back using advanced drifting techniques. theyre gonna cut my eyelid open on tuesday...
jan8 3
not dating anyone is weird because my beacon of fondness loses focus and becomes directed at the entire world and that can be overwhelming but also sometimes amazing
i think next i would like to be fond of the entire world and also someone specific at the same time. i would like to pull that one off if i can
jan8 2
floundering from my house while the coffee i drank at the coffee shop is making me feel like electrons and protons are actually just “love bits” because the world is made of love
grim sentiment hovers on the horizon as week of working from home makes local citizen idi blasks realize life would be so much cooler if they didn’t have to work This Damn Job
jan8
floundering from the local coffee shop. you can flounder anywhere if you have the grit
jan7
i have finally finished part 4 of 5 in 2666. wow, it was really good and also so sad. now i will finish the damb book
oh god theyre giving me the option to work from home tomorrow again. cool but also i’ll go crazy
cheerily productive day today after a very lazy day yesterday. proud of idi blasks
jan6
me every time i sit down to make the tiniest bit of art: "i have to make god this time"
jan5
did some good stuff today. took 2 long snow walks, did some cooking. hung out with my friends who are chill and kind people. grateful for the joy i am able to feel in this life.
jan3
i think this will be a powerful year for me. i have the foreboding and electric sense that something insane is going to happen
jan2 2
woke up last night in the middle of the night and thought about my entire life for 45 minutes and shockingly it was good, i kind of recentered myself. have been thinking abt grace and kindness and using them consciously. god grant me the wisdom to know the difference between what i can change and not and all that. i think i've had my head down a bit and forgot to sort out the difference
jan2
excited about the snow this weekend !!!!
jan1
happy new years flounder
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