nov12

i have to clean my house tonight

i have been reading the dragon ball manga

nov8

so sleepy

weekend please come! weekend please come! weekend please come!

la lu la lu la lu la lu la lu bababbabababababababa A

nov6 2

in 2008 the democratic party figured out that you could pretend to have progressive stances to get elected and then do nothing. somehow they forgot even this in the following years and have made the election campaign itself about doing nothing. amazingly, this does not work

nov6

somber day at the nonprofit office. someone is crying but im too respectful to go see who :'(

damn, shoulda told my 700,000 friends to vote for kamala in missouri... coulda turned it blue!!

nov5 3

i can't believe all those republican voters kamala was courting ended up voting for the republican candidate instead. shocking!

nov5 2

sometimes i really connect into the love and gratitude i have for my life and living and it’s really nice

nov5

the lockpicking lawyer on youtube is interesting to me because like, i get it, i enjoy watching him pick the locks, it's cool, but it's also really funny to me that he's always like "this lock has a serious design flaw. you see, if you are the world's actual greatest lockpicker and you've done a month of research into this particular lock, it's super easy to pick. i hope this company tries harder next time."

nov3

awesome that the only thing global warming can't destroy is my seasonal depression

oct30

i feel like suddenly i have a better understanding of what atoms are. watch out world

i like that because we barely know anything about space, watching pbs spacetime feels like watching someone shout conspiracy theories at you

oct29 2

debriefing on weekend now that i have returned to normal world again (took 1.5 days)

thursday took the train with X to chicago. X’s friend R and two of R’s friends were taking the same train. we got to sit at one of the tables and play games. at first i was shy but it ended up being very fun. R is cool and their personality is contagious. felt like i was imitating them the rest of the weekend lol

met bugleague that night, accidentally ate a bite of meat for the first time since going vegan because we couldnt figure out which burger was the vegan burger. watched movie called starman which was pretty bad but funny starring jeff bridges talking like a caveman

friday woke up late, got breakfast with X and bugleague, met R and friends at the contemprary art museum which is cool cuz the admission is a suggested donation and we only paid 3 bucks each to get in. did a lot of walking in the city this day, lots of fun. saw the reverse side of a sunset at the beach, tried to drink enough coffee to stay up late for the being dead show. got drinks at one of bugleague’s fave bars, talked about how we all fare in different social situations

walked to the being dead show. opener i forget the name was pretty good. villagerrr was good, great “tone”, a little slow for me, also 3 guitar boys is pushing it. being dead was just as good as i was imagining, they were humble and funny and cool. they got locked out of the building and couldnt get back in for a bit to do the encore but we all kept cheering so eventually they did and it was great. told one of them “great job” after the show. first show i truly fanboyed at since i dont even know.

walked for a long time after to find super late nite food, got to bed around 3am. saturday we went right to the train to come to st louis. tired and bored on the train, too tired to even keep busy. zoning out for five hours. picked up beck and napped while X went home to work on her costume. went to H’s halloween party as strawberry shortcake. x won most original costume (she was a computer). played four square, had fun.

sunday X made me eggs and potatoes which were really good it was awesome. watched sex and the city, napped, went to the zine release. lots of fun and lots of good poetry. finally released from the weekend i collapsed in my home. powerful dayz.

oct29

great weekend

selling my steam deck, it’s cool but not as useful when you only play games released from 1998 to 2008 and you have a nintendo ds lite

oct22 3

has anyone else read that 2020 death note extra chapter where a guy sells the death note to donald trump? i think it's cute clever and good and im not even really a fan of the original death note

oct22 2

childhood gamer idi mario fangame alert: just watched a let’s play of a fangame where someone remade/remixed one of my old mario levels. it was so cute :3

oct22

halloween costume finished. low effort but i think it’s a look

excited to see bugleague in chicago this weekend !!! and then come back for halloween party and zine release. could b a cool weekend……

oct19

i think theres a solid chance i’ll move to chicago ~4 years from now

house tasks for the coming weeks:

put up my curtain rods

organize computer room

organize basement

if i do these three things my house will basically be in its final form

i would like to thank meggplant for teaching me about ;-; which i use constantly now

oct18 2

couldnt tell you why but i have felt super good the last two weeks

oct18

my mom is sending me an unsustainable amount of instagram reels

oct17

too damn sleepy for work. i dont care about work!!!!!

it seriously takes up too much of my Freakin time

like, i am always here. why am i always here

oct16

if someone brings donuts to work im not just going to not eat them. that would be the opposite of living a joyful life. but there's so many donuts......

cathy vibes

apparently the worlds chat servers are down. end of an era :'(

oct15

in a #goodmood

oct14 2

gonna try to cut out juice again :P

oct14

awesome weekend with zine art show, four square, jazz at the kerr, pumpkin carving, lunch paid for by my aunt, found some new pants, art fundraiser, hanging out with X. ideal weekend tbh

oct10

tomorrow i will have worked at this job for 3 years. by far longest time working at one job

caught up on my reread of world trigger. i really do think it's the war and peace of our time (flaws of war and peace included). it moves at a glacial pace that makes it very powerful. has some flaws but moves past them. super comfortable in itself and the away mission test is one of the most uniquely written story arcs in modern time

oct9

eating breakfast will turn you into a good boy who loves work

oct8 2

i feel so much better now

oct8

still feeling a little crazy after working the weekend. took today off trying to recenter myself. i'm good at recentering myself but i forget it takes time. was pretty damb anxious yesterday. can't believe i used to do what i did on the weekend full time lol

oct7

my boss's work-life balance freaks me out. she basically works an event every night and worked all weekend and is going to work an overnight event next weekend (like an old rich lady lock-in...) WHILE keeping her 9-5 hours also... i guess it's better than having a lazy boss but i'm starting to feel bad for her!!

oct6

working with the public has a profoundly negative effect on my mental well-being

oct5

one thing about working an 11 hour day is that you then feel really grateful when you’re not working an 11 hour day like #now

oct4

working an 11 hour day sucks even if you only do it 6 times a year

oct3 2

i have magnet powers now

world trigger is so good because the latest chapter consists entirely of a philosophical monologue about how growth is achieved and the cliffhanger is the guy giving the monologue saying "okay but let me explain this more... in the next chapter"

oct3

sunrise mri hangin with the old folks at the south county center for advanced medicine

oct2

x did my chart recently and in the erotic section of the book it said pisces erogenous zone is the feet. this unfortunately is not true. i am far from being a feet guy. whyd they make one of the signs the feet guy. they should have left the feet out of astrology

no judgment to feet lovers

oct1

yall i was so wrong about the ddr thing. my knee is so bad rn. mri on thursday!

sep30

thomas pyn-chan (◠﹏◠✿)

wow i love X (girlfriend not platform formerly known as twitter)

sep27

new being dead album rocks....... shocker

bad "beck getting hurt" nightmare last night

managed to swerve around being completely broke while going 1000 miles per hour

really enjoyed band practice last night it gives me energy

CAN a human win solitaire 4 times in a row while refusing to use logic or think about the moves at all...............lets find out

sep26

trying to figure out who in their right mind would go to my job's staff picnic. if it was during work hours maybe. if the food wasn't awful maybe. otherwise, i have a life???????????

sep25

re-reading world trigger. a manga i really like, despite 1 or 2 glaring flaws. i think the way it tells its story is very interesting -- super methodical, patient while still action packed, determined to take its time and reveal its hand incredibly slowly. it's like... the action version of dry humor. dry action.

sep24 2

ddr update: it’s definitely doable, as long as i take it easy. i’d say my skills are about 80% of what they were before my ~4 month break. going to stay out of the hard songs and work on my form + posture. mri me now!!!!!

sep24

september is going by incredibly quickly

been in a bit of a daze the last two/three weeks, but it hasn't been the worst daze. i think it's to do with allergies... still been havin fun tho

i think im going to do ddr tonite even with my knee. i miss it and i think if i keep it light it wont affect anything

sposed to get an mri soon so thats fun

sep23 2

long distance relationship with my wife. visiting her sucks.

mouse mummies found in mars-like conditions on andes mountain

sep23

best title on r/relationships in a while

sep19

working should be banned from earth

sep18 2

when we were in high school my high school best friend made a bunch of ambient tracks and uploaded them to soundcloud and they rock i forgot about them till right now

(because i used one in a released beta version of an unreleased mario fangame level i made and someone in the MARIO FAN GAME COMMUNITY just messaged me to ask where it was from)

(i can't believe i ever wanted to write the great american novel when i had already achieved such success in the mario fan game community)

sep18

im so bored..............

..............................at work!

sep17

wisdom vs knowledge... who would win in the bloodiest confrontation this side of the mississip

sep16

been procrastinating getting my headlight fixed for 3 years and valvoline just did it for 25 bucks while i was getting my oil changed. wow

i am really enjoying listening to a fire upon the deep on audiobook. the narrator is one of the best ive ever listened to, has a very fun voice. if you like existential scifi and dogs check it out

sep13

godding out again (black tea)

this has truly been a week for feeling insanely good from 10:15 to 11:30 am

sep12 2

part 9 of jojo has been coming out for a year and a half now and i like it a lot

sep12

just made and ordered the worlds stupidest custom t shirt it's not even funny it's just an image i can't get out of my head

now that i wrote that work schedule out i realize it's so accurate lol. black tea drinking god rn

looking back on the last year and a half i think it is a miracle how high functioning i have been. good job rowen

sep10

the daily work idi blasks:

9:00am drag myself to work barely on time

10:00am high on black tea, feel like a god, read flounder

11:00am do work

11:30am bored, go home and nap

2:00pm come back to work, do work

3:00pm take anxiety meds, they make me sleepy

3:30pm too sleepy to work

4:00pm leave early

awesome

new phrases i like:

"in my ___ era"

"___ coded"

not as much a fan of:

"it's giving ___"

sep9

ever since the middle of college i have learned that (1) i actually love to exercise and (2) unfortunately, i actually am an extremely fragile creature whose body will just explode randomly if i exercise enough

sep8

beginning my “war on my styes” era

sep7

mean take but i think kazuo ishiguro is one of the lamest authors alive

sep5

slowly returning to consciousness after killer weekend from hell... reporting to flounder that in a fit of productivity last week i did in fact paint my bathroom while preparing for hell weekend and it was super exhausting but felt good to bundle that all up and have it done with

things are going good with X and we're going to try to play tennis this weekend, which i'm excited about

dragging myself through the rest of work this week so i get paid hella overtime...

sep4

read at a poetry event last night and it was fun but it was also pretty normie lit major vibes which i dont have much qualm with but it was giving me flashbacks to college and people didnt laugh very hard at my objectively hilarious poems...... always weird when you realize the world is large and people still care about having "bios", submitting to lit mags, making money from poetry, being a "featured reader", etc...... i was also really grumpy from working all weekend so that was probably most of it but i dunno folks... maybe this chip-on-their-shoulder city boy DOESN'T need to go back to grad school.......

...........but what if it's my job to fix academia from the inside out...?

aug27

painted my bedroom a yellow-orange and at first i was worried it was too much but now i think it's super awesome. i am also going to paint my bathroom

i think my problem with money is that i want to have my cake and eat it too, also i want another cake and eat that one, another cake too, and another cake

aug23

called off work today which i feel bad about but also i dont care cuz work kinda sucks

been sleeping and working on music

i wonder if i should actually get a different job, the problem is i have so little responsibility in this one and that's cool and all but it's starting to annoy me. like what am i even doing there. of course this upcoming festival weekend im going to be working really hard but besides those three times a year it's just day after day of being bored as all hell

aug22

my car battery died UGH

im replacing it with the world's cheapest car battery so hope that goes well

update it wasn't the battery and i had to pay a bajillion dollars but it's fixed

aug21 3

@starjump i was actually thinking if anyone on flounder had heard of orange lounge it would be you haha

aug21 2

orange lounge is the original fievel is glauque

@mothbaby

aug21

in an insane mood, i think because i haven't exercised in like a week and a half

going to see the new alien movie tonight

update i went home and worked out and i feel awesome

aug20

just watched the avengers to see what it's like to watch the avengers in 2024. unfortunately it is a bad movie. i was hoping it would be a good movie, this was not the case. the tone is inscrutable, the characters aren't even that good at quipping, the music is all over the place, the pacing is freaking weird..... time really does march on

feeling nostalgic today for the days when all my artistic energy was focused on making levels for mario fangames............

@mothbaby im so bored at work i've been willingly taking on tasks like an insane person.....

aug15

in my mind the events of the three body problem trilogy happened in real life but in the future

guys, i’ll say it. i’m mad at the minecraft corporation. i havent been able to get on the minecraft “realm” ive been playing on for three days. so im mad at microsoft company

nvm i got in

aug14 2

professor layton vs phoenix wright is shocking me in many ways but i think the most shocking is realizing it was made in that nintendo 3ds era where they were still designing the games around the fact that you could view them in 3d…. 3d puzzles, 3d character models, little environmental perspective shifts… truly taking me back to 2014

the fact that the game exists at all is insane. like if house md and doctor who had a crossover season

aug14

had a wild and sad week with X but i think we are back on track now. i think we both held the relationship in such high esteem that we weren't communicating when we had problems (classic) or when we felt insecure. moving forward with that in mind and taking it one step at a time! feels good that we were able to talk about it and figure it out because i really value them!

in other news i am 75 pages away from being halfway done with 2666

aug12

ok heres my idea for a video game. basically you can going anywhere and do anything. open world. you can be whoever you want to be. there are no limits and the game includes everything. could probably be done on a pretty small budget and take 1-2 years to make. the game would preferably cater to my needs exactly. if it doesn't, i should least be able to imagine it will until it is actually released

very good trip to chicago :3

aug7

getting caught up in politics news because of the election after ignoring it for years and my god that kristi noem dog story is insane

aug6 2

wow, what a beautiful night for zines

aug6

help i watched one political video on youtube and my algorithm is fucked

aug3

kirksville baybeeeeeeee

aug1

yall my job is so boring it's not even funny

jul31 3

softly, steadily, and in my own way, i still carry out the duties of the english major.

jul31 2

jonathan blow is personally the 2nd most annoying person on earth to me (1 being the classic elon musk)

probably because the witness is a good game and he's a dumb idiot

braid is and has always been shit tho

jul31

minecraft

feeling very balanced and good this week

excited to go to kirksville this weekend !!!

excellent song from the NINETIES

https://youtu.be/e5sm-LcQhCo?si=WNg6CEX0WapfrneV

jul30 2

y'all i swear i'm leftist af but i'm going to vote for kamala harris

(not that it matters in missouri)

jul30

just found out about these "nft" things. a computer picture you can buy? who /wouldn't/?

feeling weirdly optimistic about my parents. it's the parents renaissance

jul29

having a cute little contemplative night

august goals:

make ____

write a song

paint my bedroom

write 3 new good poems

jul25 2

one of those days where i need people to laugh more at my jokes at work. cmon people

crazy that my dad's in town AGAIN i think im managing my stress levels well this time tho. weird when someone wants to spend so much time with you but then doesnt seem to actually care about what is going on in your life at all

jul25

look im no car guy i would venture to say i am vehemently anti car in fact i hate cars but i saw a really cute car the other day but all i was able to see was that it was a toyota i have no information and im trying to find it online and i'm probably never going to figure out what car it was... mystery of life

jul23 2

i kinda feel really dumb for not going to the doctor before. i could've started on fixing this so much earlier... ack. so it goes tho, now i am on the path......

jul23

just webt to the freaking doctor and found out my leg might be teared but i have to do physical therapy again first before they’ll mri me but hey at least im making progress

as of yesterday, i have determined the artstyle of my new zine. now i feel like i need to write about 3 good new poems and i’ll be on my way

professor layton is a chill ass guy

this is the sound of inside my head

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocCP4JTq9JM

jul22

going to the freaking doctor tomorrow which i hate doing but i hafta do it

my updated ace attorney game ranking/tier list

--amazing--

1. Ace Attorney 1

2. Dual Destinies

3. Trials and Tribulations

4. Apollo Justice

5. Ace Attorney Investigations 2

--mid--

6. Justice For All

7. The Great Ace Attorney

8. Spirit of Justice

--pretty bad--

9. Ace Attorney Investigations 1

jul21

we fallin out of the coconut tree boyz

jul19

sleepy

i dont want to work i want to go home and play ace attorney and watch NGE with X......

folks here's my big plan:

after finishing ace attorney investigations 2 i will play the first 3 professor layton games. then i will play phoenix wright vs layton, thus playing every ace attorney game ever made. await my tier list.

in the meantime, i will read 2666 because i am a cultured artistic hero who reads big books, english major genius

meantime also i will rewatch NGE with X because i am a fucking nerd

also can we talk about X ... it's so cute that she uses moomin 90s anime episodes to go to sleep after i showed it to her.....

we had a good talk last night about our lives, current and past struggles. i like her lots!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=unXzA_v2AtY

cute album for bored at work vibes

jul18

thinking about how funny it was that they made nic cage divorced at the start of national treasure 2

having a very busy but nice week

talked to my dad last night and it is one of the weirdest things i do. he used to ask me how i was doing. now he launches right into his spiel about the 5 things that are always on his mind. i wish there was something i could do to help the man. the problem with being his therapist is that we have no actual relationship

short list of the books i think about the most:

the savage detectives

the dispossessed

roadside picnic

rendezvous with rama

jul16

making another spirited attempt at 2666

jul15

just realized i own the same logitech controller that they used on the imploded titanic sub

jul13

both the pieces of media i'm consuming rn (the name of the rose and ace attorney investigations 2) are wildly different in scope, medium, and tone, yet they are both about protagonists who were prosecutorial in the past and are coming to terms with the fact that the world of justice is more nuanced than finding "criminals" guilty.

fascinating

jul12 2

song of the day courtesy of X

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0A8T5LK5h2Y

jul12

a real deal "tgif" friday......

happy to see my 2023 zine “Martha Stewart” on the nyt best 100 books of the 21st century list

they put bolano and bechdel on there so thats nice but safe

i forgot how to read when i graduated so i cant critique too much

although if you’re putting fun home on there you might as well put goodbye eri on there too…

we need a flounder best 100 books…

scared of watching so much defunctland i start to care about disney

jul11

listening to jamiroquai dont @ me

bugleague im assuming yr on the train hope yr having a good trip!!!

jul10

i love language and how it evolves

i love how if i become wiggly my dog knows that’s a “fun” emotion and he gets excited

i think im the least addicted (overall) ive been in years

there is an alternate universe where they made a house md ripoff of ace attorney and it slapped

jul9

falling asleep at work again

X and i watched an episode of so you think you can dance on youtube the other day and the uploader switched out the songs with royalty free youtube tracks and it was awesome

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhwmLLSPAig

current stuck-in-my-head song

jul8

personally i think it's fucked they took down the 3ds storefront

i will be voting for hunter biden's laptop in the upcoming election

mr beast is younger than me wtf

jul5

so sleepy this week. falling asleep at work

since getting off spotify, i have had to work harder to find good music. youtube music's algorithm is bad. but this is not a bad thing. i think this is an important Job for me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wn-njpBoVEE

good song

jul4

found my next audiobook

jul3 2

i think it's so funny that the jojo online community thinks part 7 will be hard to animate because "horses are difficult to animate". like what does that even mean, you can study horses and animate them. there are existing animation properties with horses. it's the funniest rumor

jul3

bored at work i have tasks but they're all so small it doesn't feel important to do them........

cool to have the day off tomorrow

my friends are cool i played a cool board game last night

i want to see my out of town friends :'(

i need to find a good audiobook. i have audiobook choice paralysis. hard to choose a book that u then have to commit to for like 20 hours

jul2

media consumption is cool guys. still thinking about how awesome run lola run was and i love ace attorney

jul1

ace attorney is so cool

jun30

folks youve heard the term “epic awesomesauce” but nothing is more “epic awesomesauce” than the fact that X is back in town and we get to hang out

also we watched run lola run and that movie effing fucking rules

jun28

recently been emotional rollercoastering BUT i have accomplished many of my #plans. if i can get my knee healed i will be the most powerful person on earth

playing void stranger because people on the internet told me to

also playing ace attorney 6 at the same time but it's not gripping me as much as 4. if i had to rank the games in the series ive played it would go:

Ace Attorney 1

Dual Destinies

Trials and Tribulations

Apollo Justice

Justice For All

The Great Ace Attorney

i played the first ace attorney investigations game but i was like 13 so i dont remember it

jun27

global warming so bad we're doin' the water bucket challenge

https://www.nytimes.com/puzzles/leaderboards/invite/009285e6-e20d-4f2e-b00e-b699d10dacdc

join my nyt mini leaderboard............ inspired by meggplant

jun26

drank 2 beers last night but i dont feel shitty this morning. woohoo!!

ace attorney is cool

jun25

chainsaw man continues to be one of the most wildly written things this century

i only keep up with one piece and chainsaw man manga-wise these aged days but i have such a soft spot for serialized media. becoming less common in The Freakin' Info Age, amirite. more people need to be writing their stories by the seat of their pants, like fuckin dickens

jun24

had the laziest weekend of all time in contrast to super productive weekend of last time

played thru ace attorney 4 and enjoyed it! i think i will play 6 now, after which i will have played all the main games

having lots of thoughts about my relationship to Society At Large, but none clear enough to type out via text. one of those things where i'm unsure if i should try to "force" clarity by thinking really hard, or just let emotions flow all over each other until something clicks. either way, i'm trying to remain positive and spiritually healthy about it. something i wouldn't mind talking to a therapist about, honestly, though it's definitely not urgent or super negatively affecting my mental health

X gets back from 2 week vacation soon im excited

jun21

i had a dream about the talking mummy

excited to chill the f out this weekend

it's insane that work happens 5 times a week

jun20

"remastering" puker. decreasing all the font sizes. what was i thinking

realizing i probably have enough stuff for one more zine. i feel like recently i've entered another "phase shift"... so maybe i should get the rest out now for a clean slate

or maybe i wait until i've explored a little bit more and use the new art for the zine

top contenders for zine title:

1. rowen's ladder

2. las vegas (or like, 'las vegas, baby')

3. rowen conry's fuck maze

4. punk secret

5. rowen conry's google earth

jun19

im very much enjoying printing things. i love printer. thank you office job for giving me printer

jun18

theyre officially localizing ace attorney investigations 2 for the switch😍

jun17 2

there's a bomb surgically implanted inside me and if i sell my art for money it explodes

jun17

it's so effing hot out

got a lot done this last weekend. went to a really fun party, caught up with my brother, did a lot of work on cleaning my house, printed stuff... now i am super exhausted but that's okay

jun15 2

art update

i made 2 11x17 prints on the work printer, which was easy. my plan was to make 20 or so 5x7 prints to give away, but the work printer refused to gel with the 5x7 paper (kept jamming or not recognizing the paper right). so i'm going to reconfigure that and try to print two to a 8.5x11. i'm having fun with this, it's good motivation to make prints which i rarely do

on the "new artstyle" side, i had one idea that i want to try while at work the other day. once i finish up this printing and the sprite physical art printing, i'm going to give it a go.

i've also been deep cleaning my house this weekend, so i'm feeling quite productive, hooray

jun15

shout out to all my entertainer-heads out there

sleepy but still managing to do things

saw the circus last night is was soooo cool

jun12

i think y'all will really like this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fxk9qwCFf8s

goals today and near future...

--finish ep art for sprite

--stretch/beat saber

--pick and frame art for gallery

———>do prints on a4 at work

--sell all my valuable magic cards

goals for the slightly farther future...

--keep practicing giovanna on guilty gear

--buy beck a pool

--new bedsheets

--new cooking pan

beat saber is not nearly as fun as ddr but for old rowen mckneeinjury it does the trick and it's funny cuz the music is like ddr music but 10-15 musictrend years in the future

more rowen-on-too-much-caffeine thoughts:

i think i need a "new" artstyle. getting tired of the old one. i feel like my "flat maximalism" of the last year or so has been the most fun style i've ever drawn in, but now i want to add, like, a sphere in there. i want to make art with a sphere. and maybe with color?

my favorite colors this last year were red, green, and blue. i really like those colors together so maybe i can find a way to convert my black and white maximalist art into tri-color? gonna think on this.

maybe i can do three separate color arts and overlap them digitally somehow. that could be cool

of course, for the moment zine covers, they're still in black and white, so i'll have the opportunity to do both

jun11

year 3 of seeing the once in a lifetime corpse flower bloom

in a much better place from last week. i have goals, im managing my spending better, my knee is hopefully healing. got through my two most dreaded work things. called in sick today cuz i earned it, chillin the fuck out. life is good

chainsaw man is so good

jun9

excited abt the new life is strange game cant help it im a life is strange head

jun7

i love eating corn

gonna start calling all my minute day to day goals my “dreams”

jun4

forgot to take my meds yesterday morning, made me feel crazy... generally just trying to take life by the day, feel like im grappling with fate, it's putting me in all these grappleholds and i have to slip out one hold after the other, not the most fun feeling

chainsaw man is probably the most insane piece of popular fiction being written right now

may31

in a haze because of knee/weird work schedule/my spending habits. looking to #beatthehaze. looking to scramble the fog. looking for nature's revealing breeze. i believe in myself!!!!

may30

been thinking about roadside picnic lately

my knee thing is acting up again and it sux

may29

saw i saw the tv glow last night. have many thoughts abt it, i liked it but also had some qualms with it. cool that they referenced tux and fanny

may25

something insane happened to me yesterday and it was terrible but also made me want to love the world even harder and also maybe brought me closer to my father

may23

what is the best web search alternative to google. im tired of this ai shit on my #screen

talking to my dad is like witnessing time echo, the same conversations over and over, i wish it wasn't so hard :'(

may22

learning fighting games might be the closest we'll get in our lifetimes to attempting to decipher the runes of an alien civilization

i think i'm getting close to bringing one of my Funniest Ideas into fruition.........

may21 2

kinda crazy that the worst person in the top 3 of so you think you can dance won??????????????????

may21

if wikipedia was the only information source to survive the apocalypse, people would think alexander mcqueen was the most famous person to ever live

also, i love hanging out with the cool and awesome X so much it's crazy

may16

had a good talk with my friend last night who has a lot of the same problems i do with ocd. it was really nice!

been playing sonic adventure 2 it’s so good the amount of edgy sincerity is unmatched

may14

gamestop stock going crazy cuz i bought five issues of gameinformer off ebay last week

may10

spring fever in st louis mo. there are 8 shows every night and people are walking the streets. my dog is eating grass in my backyard, im drinking with my friends in the back patio of the bar, the weather makes me feel like i will never die. i am having the feeling that there's something big and philosophically interesting hidden right behind the world, and attempting to find it by playing sonic adventure 2 on my dreamcast. there are orbs in the sky that get bigger when you use a telescope, but when you use a microscope you see the smallest orbs of all.

my (spoilerish?) thoughts on death's end: for the first 3/4 of it, it was my favorite book of the trilogy. the ending soured it just a little for me: honestly i think went too far with the crazy technology. i think the whole trilogy was refreshingly "grounded" in possible science until the end got super cosmologically vast

i also got spoiled beforehand on what the "weapon" the singing alien uses on humanity was, so that was a little less powerful a moment than it could have been, but it was still so interesting

and i think the characters in this book were a rung above the last two. the two mains, cheng xin and AA, were great. AA is my favorite character in the series, i like how she's a doofus but she still gets to solve some of humanity's greatest problems, even if she does go trolley problem on humanity at one point (the false alarm scene)

there is so much discourse about cheng xin online, which i find fascinating. i truly think that, while the author does have some sexist notions on the nature of male vs female, he is not trying to show that emotions are worthless by having cheng xin, the embodiment of love for humanity, fuck up again and again. there's even people online saying she's weak and "couldn't get the job done" when the point is LITERALLY the opposite: she was strong enough to resist giving up our human kindness to "win the war", which would have made us into the same robotically evil "survival of the fittest" aliens that plague the universe. her "fucking up" was her deciding that as humans we need to take the hard path, the path of love. sometimes that didn't work out very well, but it was the thing worth doing, and the emotion worth saving. she was the protector of humankind's love. even wade knows that deep down, and that's why he keeps his promise (another frequent internet comment: wade shouldn't have kept his promise. literally insane). and i think that's also what makes trisolaris respect her and her bf.

in a way though, i do kinda like how much discourse this particular book has created (and for the record, i do understand the other side of the argument too and it has some merit). cixin liu has some really cool ideas about space. i really liked this series it was sooo my cup of tea

may9 2

finished death’s end. reading discourse online. feels like SUCH a classic internet men move to misread cheng xin’s character like half the internet is doing

may9

dogs are the blessed creature

dogs are proof that love is real

dogs are proof that trust will save the universe

may8

a very sweet zine meetup yesterday :3

may7

i think this is one of the best jungle/dnb dj sets on youtube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kufqq1v7XFo

may6 2

this is probably old news but this is making me laugh really hard

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xy36R3vmE2A

may6

the zadie smith thinkpiece discourse is electrocuting me back to my english major, a whirlpool of time

have half a mind to check out the 3 body problem show but i know i wont like it because the rhythm of "prestige television" makes me vomit my socks up

may5

recovering from a bout of mental breakage :/

death’s end is one of the craziest books ever written. genius level

may 2

too much work stuff, i have to go work the wildflower sale at our nature reserve tomorrow ugh. and i have a lame meeting today. stop it work

i started the deaths end audiobook last night even though i said i was going to wait

the ways that people treat art, the ways they experience it, comment on it, discuss it, are so interesting. i want to think more about this

may1 2

just finished the dark forest. again, the writing is kind of terrible and the characters are wooden as hell but the ideas in the book are so well done. not often do i read books just for the concepts but i really do think they are worth it. the one pro to the way it's written, i think, is that it works as a very methodical slow burn narrative that gets more and more horrific, to the point where towards the end you're just like "oh god" every twenty minutes.

going to read the third one but i might try and wait a bit so i don't get burnt out. this book was like twice as long as the first one

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^^glad the people of reddit are with me

may1

the dark forest lagging in the second half. go back to the imaginary girlfriend

the john cage anti-protest professor guy makes me go red evil mode. glad big joel made a video on him so i can seethe

apr30

felt guilty calling in sick to work today because of tired but it actually was good cuz im so back

apr29

real fucked up what happened at wash u

apr25

i cannot believe this book about a guy talking to his imaginary girlfriend is the sequel to the three body problem. im still invested though

apr24

tabling for the garden at bayer today X_X

is portal finally old enough that it's a cool obsession. can i dress as chell for halloween

apr23

the dark forest is an insane book

apr22

caught up with one piece. i think one piece is probably the most well-written comic, has many flaws but the characters are extremely well-realized.

the three body problem was about science and an alien-loving death cult. the dark forest, its sequel, appears to be about a man talking to his imaginary girlfriend and hanging out with her. i support this

but also, one of the dark forest's themes so far is that great literature is created when you are basically able to "hallucinate" a character into real existence. and that made me think of one piece, because you know eiichiro oda can "see" luffy. im entranced by the fact that oda started writing one piece basically as his first "work" when he was 22 and has continued to write it for over 25 years... i would get tired of the same characters running around in my head for that long

in order to go full nerd and get my nerd points, here are my top ten characters from one piece

1. big mom

2. monkey d luffy

3. tony tony chopper

4. mr 2 bon clay

5. charlotte katakuri

6. jinbe

7. that gun that can turn into a dog from alabasta

8. gang bege

9. nami

10. mont d'or

gonna keep talking about one piece. i think one piece is at its core an argument for optimism. it posits we should believe in miracles, but also not wait around for them. that is a good message. personally, i believe in that

apr21

gonna try to read the stand. why not

apr18

the fact that the neon translucent plastic trend of the 90s only lasted like 15 years makes me feel like there's a whole world of tiny aesthetic niches thru history that will be forever lost to time

apr15

crying because i had to pay the government 4 dollars in taxes

i got some cute shorts from goodwill yesterday watch out

i like when i find the sock of someone im dating in my laundry. always heartwarming <3

apr13

i just came up with something really funny

alexander mcqueen on the wiki front page again. i found out thru depths of wikipedia that this is because there is a prominent wikipedia editor with an alexander mcqueen obsession. which is awesome to know, though i do miss when it felt like my personal conspiracy

apr11 2

im gonna do it. im gonna cancel my freakin internet

apr11

wondering if i can actually get away without paying for internet. i can use my phone as a hotspot and i can download stuff at work. i really think it might be possible

apr10

been out of it the last 2 days. i think part of it is my house is a mess. gonna clean tonight

apr9

im so tea pilled now guys it's not even funny

saw the eclipse with my friends it was crazy like that is a freaking omen dawg

apr6

big mom is the best one piece character

apr5

theres always too much food at work, and i eat to much of it. but when there's no food at work, like today... i get sad............

apr4

actually did stuff at work today *shocked*

apr3

date of birth feels like a fake band to me like theyve been inserted into history like tlon. and they rock

apr2

just finished the three body problem. i really liked it, although the actual writing style is rather stilted. i think the ideas in it and the commentary/allegory on how humanity acts toward itself is really well done. and the science fiction concepts are terrifying. maybe the best existential horror i've ever read

mar30

driving back from eureka with X… we saw a lizard, she drank from a tub labeled “holy water”, and we might have ticks. all in all a successful outing

been reading one piece so much, makes me feel like we can defeat all our problems by punching people

X has a message for flounder: “make sure you put enough honey on your peanut butter honey sandwich or else you’ll get a mouthful of all peanut butter, no honey.”

mar27

dear diary . after 3 tries, i learnt a powerful Gamer Lesson. do not order a crt monitor from ebay. it will get broked during shipping. i am now on a painful quest to find this certain type of crt monitor i can pick up locally… painful

mar25

feelin' good

had a dream last night that someone walked by my car and was like "pff, really? a 2007 honda accord?" and i spent a long time explaining to them why it was actually a cool and reliable car (including dream facts like how my car used "G2 oil" just like ferraris). i think i convinced him. then he started crying because his daughter was missing

in real life, this was a weekend of seeing people after self-quarantining for a week. i think, thankfully, that i managed to avoid getting covid knock on wood. i had a lovely time,,, went on a hike, went to a friend's birthday party, which was really fun

and yesterday i went to X's friend's house and met more of her friends, they all seem like kind people. we played a lot of charades. and one of X's friend's little siblings is into Jojo and it was fun to talk about that. i think she is the first person I've talked to IRL who has made it all the way to Steel Ball Run. she also had the jojo ps4 fighting game and we played a round. rare extreme nerdout on my part (as opposed to my incredibly frequent mild nerdouts)

mar19

obsessed with the only three songs you can find on youtube from Date Of Birth's fake greatest hits album... i literally can't find the rest of the album anywhere online i had to order it from discogs. what da heck???

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Psy2hAMcCS8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=soKzwzxm594

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMq5hFfrpZo

mar18 2

been doing a lot of thinking. i think that soon, but eventually, but soon, i'm going to have to quit my job. for my soul.

mar18

i cant wait to go to six flags

mar17

everyone should read one piece

im in self-quarantine due to covid exposure and im so bored haha.... finished uncharted 2 now im on 3

mar16

blah blah blue blue blue blue blah ble blah BLUE bla, BLABLABLABLABLABLA blue blue blue beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh beh

beh.

beh.

^^current state of mind

mar14 3

i think X is a real amazing person

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need to watch myself with content consumption. i need to make time for the creation process too. i had some fun little poem thoughts on my walk just now. tricky when you have to force yourself to engage more in writing sometimes. but i want to write because i like it.

right now, i'm in a weird spot where i did two zines last year that i really liked making. but now i'm wanting to do something slightly different and i don't know what that is.

and in a way, i'm already overthinking it... i need to just let it happen. or, like: let the megastructure of the thing happen, and focus on the creation of the microstructures.

like: when i write, i have to go down deeper and deeper, magification after magnification...

a crazy role we have in the universe. we just have to sit around and desire... and that's my desire, i want to write......

mar14 2

to me (and i feel like most people agree), the golden age of one piece goes from Arlong Park to the end of the big war for Ace. it’s sooo gooood

mar14

really happy with my life right now ^_^

what has rowen been doing? most of what rowen has been doing is consuming media content... who wouldn't?

been reading one piece, just started replaying uncharted 2 (i have a soft spot for anything that feels like indiana jones/national treasure -_-), almost caught every pokemon in gen 4, watched the iron giant recently (great movie)...

played mario party with my friends last night and it was super fun

and i am working on a paper mache mask (X is making one too) and i'm super excited about it (but worried about my painting abilities when we get to that stage...)

mar13

anyone have any good sci-fi book recs

mar9

ok yall i have an idea for a horror story i could write. think i can pull it off??

so excited for daylight savings time (or the end of it or whatev) honestly

mar8

somehow, by the magical process of actually doing my job, i have basically caught up on almost every task at work. to be honest, it's a good feeling

mar7

trying to figure out if i could write a horror story or not. i like reading them but i don't quite know how i would write one

mar5

get ready for not one but two Gamer Opinions

Gamer Opinion 1: the final fantasy 7 remake games look terrible and the voice acting and animation and everything looks so awful to me. it feels like the game version of the one piece netflix show or that man in the high castle show adaptation where everything is as deliberate and slow as possible and there is no stylistic effort at allllllll

Gamer Opinion 2: finished disco elysium and it's so awesome so good good good good, good game that's good

feb28

bad news for music fans everywhere… ive been obsessively listening to Gordon the last few days…….

my birthday’s tomorrow!

i'm taking the day off tomorrow for my birthday and i think that's the greatest decision i've ever made in my life

feb27

bloop bleep blop bleep blurp bloop bleep blop bleep bleep bloop mip mip mip mip brrrrm brm brm blop brm zip zip zip zip zip zip zrrrrrrrrrrrrr zip zrrrrrrrrrrrr shshshshshshsh sh sh sh shff shff shff shff step step step step walk walk walk walk foot foot foot step foot step foot step walk walk walk chirp chirp shff shff shff bip shff bip bleep shff blop bop bop bleep

^^how i feel right now

feb26

really i simply had the best weekend ever with X as the weather turns to Good albeit frighteningly early, but walking in the woods feels powerful delightful. more specifically, i played four square with my friends, what a healing and healthifying thing to do and we played for hours. and the next day, hung out on grand with X and played disco elysium among other things. on sunday, the final day, i met X's mom who is a certified cool mom who reads graphic novels (and has an entire bookshelf full of them) and recommended some to me. then we hiked at saint francois, and for some reason there were only like 5 people there on the nicest day in history.

now, at work, i must work. but soon i will not be at work.

i am growing more and more enamored with disco elysium

here are some media consumption goals for the coming months:

--finish This Is How You Lose Her

--finish This Is How You Lose The Time War

(learning how to lose things)

--finish Disco Elysium (this will probably happen next)

--finish The Three Body Problem (on audiobook)

--finish 2666 (long-term goal, 2024 goal, im ~100 pages in)

--finish catching all the pokemon up to gen 4 (i am probably 70% of the way there)

--read dubliners

my current movie watch list for the near future:

--RRR

--unico in the island of magic

--im thinking of ending things

--brazil

have fun out there yall

feb23

my review of watchmen: it's kind of really awkward to read, between the extra stuff and the pirate side story and the heavy amount of text, the actual fact that it's a comic kind of takes a backseat. the nine-panel-a-page setup also makes it feel a little stiff. also, it's got a bit of that "edgy for the sake of edgy" shit like sandman and a lot of older "gritty" comics. but it's still a really cool story and i think the cold war commentary holds up and does a good job feeling as dread-inducing now as it was then. the characters are really fun and so's the ending. that was my review of watchmen, the comic that every nerd on earth has reviewed

feb22 2

im a fake fan of old technology….. i looked at a dell crt monitor for five minutes and now i feel like im gonna throw up….. the flicker…..

feb22

i'm very interested in this year. in what will happen to me. i feel like this is the most unknown mental and physical space i've ever entered. everything is familiar, but i can sense a ghost. but not a past ghost, a ghost of something real in the future. slowly becoming real like accumulation of mist/ectoplasm

this is a year where i could probably be convinced magic tricks are real. where if somebody read my fortune on their own devised set of predictive cards, i would expect it to come true. like always, i keep thinking about shoemaker-levy 9. i think it will probably happen again in our lifetimes, and we'll see the spot on jupiter.

it's funny how (at least in my experience) after you've tripped enough times, all trees just look like that forever. spindly twisty with a pattern. this year i feel very connected to my skin. i feel like my sense of touch has improved. my nose and tongue are dull but the tips of my fingers are on fire.

this could be the year i die by car accident, but it will probably just be the year i paint something on a really big canvas. this year, i want to hear the ringing of metal banging against metal in a fun, musical way. i want to behave like a parrot or a dog, and maybe screech at someone. i want to lay down on the floor and hear humming. i want to walk around and smile

feb21 2

local stl resident’s life CHANGED forever by world’s most comfortable pair of pants

playing disco elysium and reading watchmen makes me feel like i'm going to put on a long coat and walk into 1992, like the matrix hasn't come out yet but when it does, i'll fall in love with it but find it pedestrian at the same time......

feb21

making myself read all the watchmen extra non-comic bits, which i definitely skimmed over when i was 18….. some of it is really good and some of it is four pages of bird science…….???

feb20

treating all my meetings today like i'm all 12 of the angry men

im doing my work’s cyber training and the training is set up like you’re watching a livestream of a hacker doing a Q&A, with a fake twitch chat and everything

also he swears in this???? amazing

feb19 2

just watched 12 angry men. kind of wild how it's a movie about social injustice starring 12 angry white dudes and no one else. it was also really good. also it just is a great name for a movie

i think i forgot how cool it is to read and watch movies and stuff again. it's so fun

feb19

rereading watchmen

proud of myself for fixing my computer

rewatched being john malkovich with X last night

got a paper journal. i think springtime is journal time

oh also, i showed X the moomin tv show and she really likes it and im so happy abt that

the vaporwave aesthetic is so surface level. always been boring to me. now the backrooms, i think i get that one

feb18

at the core of my being is a supreme confidence that my dumbass jokes are extremely funny

feb14 2

im so bored at work im going to start eating all the things in my office. starting with my chair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes i want to shitpost in my old english professors' facebook post comments so bad and i have to stop myself

i think the key to solving my entire musical taste is that i think stereotype a is cibo matto’s best album

feb14

24 hours of reflection on the family guy dream. i think this is a good thing. it symbolizes a lack of worry in my life. all my subconscious wants to do is watch family guy. maslow's peak. the pointy part of the hierarchy. sugar for the soul. this is the fingertip of God

feb13 3

they finally broke me and i got youtube premium

feb13 2

a regular old day here at Work, where everything is Work, except i don't want to Work, and it's nice out.

i had a really fun time at the moment open mic last night and everyone reading their poetry was really inspiring to me. i really want to make more stuff

im going on a valentines date with X tomorrow and im really happy abt that

all that said, last night i had a family guy dream... so my mind will probably finish its decomposition within 10-15 days

feb13

yall… i had a dream last night that was me trying to find a funny clip from family guy.

they were trying to delete peter’s voice completely from the internet, because the voice actor changed or the show ended or something.

but yeah… what is the world coming to… im having family guy funny moments dreams….

feb12

alexander mcqueen on the wikipedia front page again. i swear that guy has the most front page representation of any human being. someday i’ll run the numbers

i think my new goal is to try recording some stuff with the microphone i picked up a while back (on uncle-altoid's suggestion)... is it too insane to want to record a spoken word album

just got a 400 combo on ddr nonstop mode

feb10

my mood is so blatantly tied to the weather its so funny it makes me feel like the rest of my brain is fake, phantom imagery justification

X is so cool it’s crazy

feb9

best roger ebert quote

alex you should approve my friend maxine's account that she made......????

feb8 2

la la la la la la la its nice out la la la la

must work out tomorrow! kinda forgot today

i read my book and listened to an audiobook like real springtime rowen… cant wait to be them

feb8

snufkin on wikipedia front page?good omen

just had the worst nightmare ive had in a long time :(

wow the first pokemon games came out in japan 2 days before i was born

feb7

in my letter mailing era

getting over a 2 day strangeness that i think might have been the most mild sickness. feeling productive and sleepy at the same time. i think i need a pilgrimage. unfortunately i've used much of my work vacation time on being depressed

ok i have 4 days of vacation currently. gotta hold on to those

feb6

unsustainable addictions:

spending money

sustainable addictions:

pokemon

feb5

warming

feb1

it's my month people get ready for the big event

but first the groundhog

read some more of 2666 last night im going to get reading again i swear

high of 67 today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

springtime day. we're gonna get tricked by this groundhog i just know it

jan31

feeling on the verge of something. like something's coming. i think it's that damn groundhog. i think he's gonna do something big this year

somehow i tricked myself into actually working today at work

manic obsession levels High as rowen tries to get his printer working on the imac

just found a pristine half full pack of smokes on the ground

jan30

this feels flounder coded

https://twitter.com/_snailll/status/1752103169587318989

spending too much money. have to stop now

have to work out before i go to bed. i will do these things!

i can flounder from my papasan chair now

sleepy sleepy crazy, i want it to be spring so i can read outside. grateful for my friends and beck. and my unrelenting courage(?)

jan29

loving the "official explanation" jim davis gave for why garfield hates mondays

jan28

booted up my imac to write this post because i'm just that cool

spent most of the day with X. we went to an antique mall (i bought jeans and a set of coasters), then we saw the st louis symphony perform peter and the wolf among other things thanks to free tickets i got cuz im friends with a lovely person who works there. then we went to my house and danced around and watched the green knight :)

jan27

posting from mac os 9

it's definitely less cute than os X but it runs better on this computer

enjoyed the open mic last nite and the nite before playing mancala with X. yayy

the old mac is so cool. this is exactly the kind of shit i eat up like candy. and i can play adventure games on it !!!

i think my next project is to get the imac connected to my printer. which apparently is possible

jan25

excited to play mancala with X tonite

the weather is punching me in the gut like today i had to do the thing where i text my boss i'm coming in an hour late cuz i could barely move

but now i feel really good so turns out listening to your body is really good for you

i did not succeed in putting os 9 on my imac because my CD burner is dead so i have to get another one ack. wait thinking about it i think my old computer has a cd burner on it

and i think i found it... the papasan chair that's going to cure me

but that's the last money i'll ever spend i swear

jan24 2

why the f doesn't anyone make a giant papasan chair

im going to try to dual boot mac os 9 onto the imac. my tech know-how stops at the “my grandson’s a computer whiz” level so wish me luck

jan24

dream report: me and a bunch of other people navigating a rotting abandoned house, half the floor would collapse if you walked on it. was bringing a bike with me. found a bunch of towels themed after mario kart courses, took one. we all sat in a room and introduced our dnd characters. it was getting dark, so we carefully traversed back out the house. i forgot my towel so i went and got it

jan23

flounder is cool because you can subsume the angst and ennui of people you dont know and also learn how to grow a plant from a single cell

jan22

i have the morning off 2day cuz of weather yayyyyyyyyyyyyy

whole day off

my pokemon search is going well (trying to catch them all in gen 4). i have all the legendaries including manaphy that i had to play pokemon ranger for. just got feebas. i need one more fossil, then the rest are pretty much “find em in the grass”. but there are a ton of those that i dont have. and i also have to level them up to evolve

i feel like i have come to a good agreement with winter. i wont ruffle its hair, and it wont mine. i exist in my home, and sometimes i hang out with my friends or X. i go to work with both a sigh and grit. i listen to new wave and look at my dog. yesterday i played ddr and did the best ive ever done. and at the end of the day, i take a deep breath and send a piece of myself forward into spring

this is earth and it’s nice, because we came here to have a good time through a lot of empty space

jan21

past couple days ive been so into cleaning it’s awesome???

jan18

so tired today

jan17

posting on flounder from my iMac g3 blueberry

jan16

stl folks, just know that next wednesday it's gonna be high of 48. cling to that as i am

organizing things in my house

jan14

my train got canceled cuz its too cold but i got another train for tomorrow

we went to a store that had so many zines it was cool

just watched the fly

im really happy the radio/tv station wikipedia people are getting their day in the limelight

jan13

painting

successfully read on the train

bugleague and i watched C.H.U.D.

jan12

on da train to chicago to see bugleague

watched the neverending story last night. pretty sure that was the first time i watched it from start to finish

jan11

here is what i have to do today

-work

-go home and work out

-nap maybe if i can swing it

-vacuum?

-back to work lol

winter end NOW

jan10

addicted to haircut 100. played some for R and they were unimpressed :P

i've been watching so many movies lately it's crazy

my hot take is every disappointing franchise film sequel is the best movie

jan8 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20Jcrk6jGfo

jan8

i don't like texting it's so hard

winter is so hard i should be living on the equator

wait i might like texting now. X and i are having a text rap battle. they called it a "rap cold war". i think that is really funny

it's getting to the point where i really need to do things for my job and i just... can't... bring myself to do them........

i'm spending money recklessly on the internet again........

good rowen: i'm trying to stop eating out so much. i'm getting off doordash. i'm going to aldi because it's cheaper

bad rowen: i just spent $400 on an iMac g3 blueberry 1999 fruit pc with matching colored keyboard and mouse

jan6

it snobed

everett true is so cool

watched legally blonde

good, movie

jan5

i made a gitlab account to test the mario fan game i worked on when i was 17 and now gitlab's adding me on linkedin and calling me at work ;-; vendors amirite

jan4

X and i watched man on wire. hardcore recommend

remember when actor mike butters said "pepsi for tv game" in the pepsi-based japanese-only videogame pepsiman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Dy7VUQb780

i've been thinking about that a lot lately

wow i just signed my lease for next year and they didn't increase my rent. they even told me they were going to when i signed last year. this is awesome

honestly it's so funny how happy this is making me rn

going to the goodbye house show on saturday demanding all the ambient noiseheads make their next 40 minute track centered around this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Dy7VUQb780

jan2 3

rowen getting out of sick here is my plan

NOW

-do dishes

-shower

-go to bed normal time

TOMORROW

-go to work

-go home

-ddr

-bonus: lunch with mothbaby

-go get my tattoo from S finished

-back to work

-clean my house

-hang out with X

-bedtime

THURSDAY

-work harder than i did on wednesday

-help O with her zine

-hang out with E <-------------------------------------im here right now

these are my plans

i would also like to state that for the first time in my long life, today i intentionally bred an egg move onto a pokemon. it was mean look onto absol from smeargle capturing it off a golbat. i am now a true gamer

jan2 2

apparently the mario fan game i worked on when i was 17 is finally coming out. that is crazy

jan2

working my last fjucking garden glow (garbage glow) and i can't wait to go out of here and leave

i'm hanging out with X tomorrow yay

been a bit off lately, i think because beck and i haven't been walking cuz of his injury, plus i've been sick so i can't do ddr. all i can do is sit! i've even watched movies

bored at work but i don't really have anything interesting to write on flounder

i've been playing pokemon............

one of my friends and one of my other friends just broke up with each other... that's all i know. i think i'm going to get the tea on thursday

i am a sucker for gossip, which is usually fun and occasionally not great. but usually fun

haven't really been thinking about much lately... ice over my brain

i feel bad for beck, i can tell he's bored. i've been trying to give him things to do. he's kind of a funny dog in that he's not really a self-starter. he rarely tries to get me to play with him, but if i start playing with him he gets excited about it

jan1

i was sick on new years. the last thing i did in 2023 was watch indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull

i went to the history museum the other day and they have a cool thing where you can color on the walls and color in stl buildings. it kinda rocked, recommend

theres a lot out there in the world to see but i think i could live another six or seven years in stl and not regret it. doesnt mean i will tho